It has taken me too long to get here, but what really matters now, is I am here.. and now. Present.
Ready to color it. Make my black and white life into multicolored present
To see things in much more features than just bad and good. To practice what I have long know in theory.
Just being me. as is. Here and Now.
It really eats me live. I always want to just be me, but I almost never am.
Always make sure to wear a covering, heaven forbid, someone will find out who I really am.
And my biggest present I can ever give myself, is to be really me in this beautiful fatal world.
Clipped wings, I was a broken thing
Had a voice, had a voice but I could not sing
You would wind me down
I struggled on the ground
So lost, the line had been crossed
Had a voice, had a voice but I could not talk
You held me down
I struggle to fly now
But there's a scream inside that we all try to hide
We hold on so tight, we cannot deny
Eats us alive, oh it eats us alive
Yes, there's a scream inside that we all try to hide
We hold on so tight, but I don't wanna die, no
I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die
And I don't care if I sing off key
I find myself in my melodies
I sing for love, I sing for me
I shout it out like a bird set free
No I don't care if I sing off key
I find myself in my melodies
I sing for love, I sing for me
I'll shout it out like a bird set free
I'll shout it out like a bird set free
I'll shout it out like a bird set free
Now I fly, hit the high notes
I have a voice, have a voice, hear me roar tonight
You held me down
But I fought back loud
But there's a scream inside that we all try to hide
We hold on so tight, we cannot deny
Eats us alive, oh it eats us alive
Yes, there's a scream inside that we all try to hide
We hold on so tight, but I don't wanna die, no
I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die
And I don't care if I sing off key
I find myself in my melodies
I sing for love, I sing for me
I shout it out like a bird set free
No I don't care if I sing off key
I find myself in my melodies
I sing for love, I sing for me
I'll shout it out like a bird set free
I'll shout it out like a bird set free
I'll shout it out like a bird set free
I'll shout it out like a bird set free
I'll shout it out like a bird set free
I'll shout it out like a bird set free
TO BE MYSELF
It is as hard as easy it sounds.
Maybe not for everyone, but for me for sure.
Always trying to please the others, letting myself be imprisoned within.
Always afraid of what who may think, but who cares? It's my time to set the bird free, to sing my song and don't even care if I'll sing off key.
I am really bad in that, but thats exactly what this blog is for.
For such person like me, this is probably the best way to deal with it. I guess (and hope) 'why' will become clearer during the time.
Visual arts, yoga and martial arts
Three scopes I have a strong affinity to.
Even I have never dealt with one of them, I always had some connection to.
This year, in honor of my 29th birthday (was exactly two months ago and a week ago), I promised myself as a gift to start a long-lasting serious relationship whit this three new friends.
To be honest, at first there was just art and yoga. Martial arts was added to the list only yesterday, after I finally reached to the point that MA is THE kick-ass I needed. I even haven't started yet, and it's already does the work:
Here I am, start writing a blog.
I have a strong feeling it can help me, and maybe some others in my situation. But even if it's not, or even if no one will ever read it, or worse, if someone will read it and will just laugh – still it will worth every word.
The idea is simple. To start this three stuff, and to write a blog about it.
First to organize this three super duper extensive experiments. To get a serious relationship whit each of them, it requires intense in-depth research and consistent practice. The internet has so many information, and I wish to have one place that concentrate it all important and valuable info. This is what this blog is gonna be.
Second, to have higher commitment to my decision, to my choices, to my brand new relationships [specially with myself].
Third, to have sequenced and visual monitoring and control system for the whole process. To find the mistakes, to understand it and learn from it, to improve and to go forward,all while being able to actually see it.. like a proof to myself that I am actually doing it!
And last, to share it. With those who just like me looking for a simple ways to be present here and now, to simply live the moment and enjoy it. To live a balanced life and see the them in many different beautiful colors.
GOOD LUCK ➵
Colorful Present 
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